Evening Reflection: Something's gotta change

I swear I am a night owl, but maybe it is because I really don’t like life right now and only feel comfortable in the dark. I get more done between 9 pm and 2 am than any other time of the day.

Can we talk about sabotaging?

There is no way I can do what I want to do and still work like this. Not only is it unprofessional (my clients deserve a lot better), it is unproductive. I wasted so much time today. So much time.

When does the sense of urgency kick in? When do I feel the pressure, the rush, the adrenaline of having a deadline breathing down my neck and how can I force myself to make that urgency appear in the morning?

It’s 1:34 am and I am supposed to get up at 6 am to work out.

Yep, that’s some serious self sabotaging.

Especially since I didn’t finish one client project I was supposed to, and the other project is a mess and needs to be rewritten.

Something’s gotta change.

For sure.