Morning Motivation: When the clouds roll in...

It’s Wednesday morning and the clouds have returned, physically and metaphorically. I have no idea what I want to do with my business, except that I know copywriting is making me a nervous wreck who constantly questions my ability to write. And without my writing, I am nothing. I am a Writer. So when a client changes every.single.word on a sales page, I start to lose my way.

I need to take some serious, crazy, audacious leaps in my life. Not small ones that can be forgotten or glossed over within a few days. But some “holy fuck, what is she doing and who does she think she is” changes.

And I am terrified.

What if I am not good enough?
What if I am that lazy?
What if I am that stupid (or at least not smart enough to be seen as the expert in whatever I need to be an expert in)?
What if I am that much of a coward?
What if I am supposed to play small, stay in my lane, not make waves, just exist?

I am nothing special.
I am nothing important.
I am nothing …

But I am a child of God. And when God puts something in your heart that is so big, and feels so right, how can I question whether this is what I am meant to do?

They say that the Universe never gives you a challenge you can’t handle, a problem you can’t solve, a dream you can’t reach, a path you can’t follow (or blaze).

The hard part is not the accepting of the challenge. I have already done that.

The hard part is every single day reminding myself that this is what I am meant to do. And everything that I have to give up, everything I have to lose, everything I have to burn down in order to stay aligned with my calling, that is the work.

The sun doesn’t go away when the clouds roll in. It is still warming the planet and doing its thing just like it was always meant to do.

So today, my dreams of Everest may feel distant and less possible, it is still my path home to myself.