Morning Motivation: When it feels like the road is too long...

I weighed myself yesterday (315 pounds) and wondered how I got here and how am I ever going to reach my dreams which rely on my body being strong, healthy, and fit. My most accounts, it should take me about 2 years to lose the weight (I would love to be around 130-145 pounds) but that means training for Everest with all of this extra baggage. Think what that will do to my knees and back.

It almost feels like it will take too long, and be too hard, so why even bother? I did this to myself so now I have to suffer to undo it to myself.

On most days, those thoughts would have sent me spiraling into a hole of unhealthy food and binge watching. But it didn’t. I stuck with the program and even worked out for the first time in forever.

What I remembered, and what I always need to remember, is that this isn’t really about getting to the summit of Everest. Yes, that is my goal. But it is the journey that I am more curious about, and absolutely committed to.

I’ve spent my whole life knowing that I am capable of more. Wondering if this is all there is to life? Yearning for my own adventures and connections and celebrations. I am not normal. I am not meant to live a normal life. I’ve known that since my first semester of college. So why have I let life control how I live and how I see myself?

Truth is I am in control. I own this one life and this is all I have right now. I can choose to follow my dreams even with the understanding that it will be hard, impossible even, and that there are no guarantees. And I get to choose every single day how I want to live my life. What attitude I want to bring to the day. How I want to be in service to the world.

I am not normal. I have impossible dreams. And I am audacious enough to believe I can reach them.

So when the road feels too long, too bumpy, too curvy, too hilly, and filled with too many roadblocks, I get to remember that it really is about the journey and to sit back and enjoy the view.