Training + Eating: The day things went off the rails

I was so excited when I woke up because I was getting a rental car so I could finally leave the house (it has been two weeks since I have seen another human being) and I have actually plans - see A Star Is Born and Free Solo in the theater, then a trip to Trader Joe’s. I mean, that is a great weekend, right?

So, I fixed breakfast and hopped on my client call and things didn’t feel right. My stomach started to really hurt. I thought maybe it was hunger pains; I haven’t really been eating that much. I ate a little bit of leftovers and that didn’t help. I tried oyster crackers and Mountain Dew to settle my stomach. Nothing.

Then I felt super hot - I suddenly had a slight fever (99.0) so I laid down and did a body scan. The best I can figure is that I was having a slight anxiety attack that causes my stomach to hurt to the point where I have to vomit for relief. I used to suffer from this pretty regularly, but haven’t had an episode in quite awhile.

Thing is, I didn’t feel stressed so I couldn’t figure out what I was freaking out about. Then it hit me - I need to change everything in my life. I need to sell my house and move, redesign my business, change my relationship with my family (I am constantly flaking out on them), and change how I see my self and my body. Everything. No wonder my subconscious was a mess.

After some deep breaths and mental cheerleading, I felt better. A few more oyster crackers and back to normal.

But that wasn’t what set the train off the rails. I got my rental car and just drove around town. Freedom. I wanted to go to the coffee shop to journal, but I still hadn’t eaten much (it was around 3 pm at the time) so I decided to grab lunch and then head to the park to write and meditate.

Let’s just say my lunch choices were not aligned with my goals.

TRAINING

Nope.

EATING

Breakfast (9 am)

Almond, Banana, and Date Smoothie*

Snack (11:15 am)

About 1/4 cup of Lentil Fried Rice (leftovers) + 12 oz can of Mountain Dew + about 10 oyster crackers

Lunch (3 pm)

Crispy chicken sandwich with mayo and 2 pickle strips, onion rings, fried cheese curds, medium Mountain Dew from Freddie’s

Dinner

Handful of trail mix

* RECIPE FROM THE CENTR APP.

WATER

About 40 oz